In examining forty years of my quest for an understanding of consciousness I have gained and lost allot of what I thought I thought it was to be a human being. New has replaced old, and old has replaced new.

I learned that the consciousness of reality that we all hold is just the tip. Our consciousness extends so far, that when you finally glimpse it, your view of reality is altered. So much so that one will never regain that feeling of solidity.

My journey was guided by a man called Lone Eagle. He is the one who informed me that what I was looking for could only be experienced in the “dreamtime”. He taught me the skill of what many call lucid dreaming.

Most importantly, in one our journeys together he introduced me to a wolf. The wolf then became my teacher and companion in the dreamtime for 4 years. I can’t really explain that, but I have a list of questions that I received, in order to join the pack on the hunt.

wolf . . .
teacher,
pathfinder,
moon-dog of my soul,
howling,
singing,
teaching how to know.

This process within this evolution is not easy to verbalize, but in order to get a true feeling for what this implies, in terms of the wolf’s teachings, it may be helpful to look at it in the following manner: When you have come to grasp the meaning within the first question, through facing and conquering your challenges surrounding this question, your Dreamer then progresses you to the challenges that teach you the meaning inherent within the second question, and so on up to 33. Needless to say, no one lifetime is long enough to learn the “answers” to all 33 questions. Therefore these questions are progressively answered across many lifetimes, and once they have been answered you start again from the beginning, for now you have the knowledge to go even “deeper” still!

So the best approach to these questions, is not to try to “answer” them intellectually, but to grasp them at a feeling level, and then to compare your “answer” with your actual understanding of the teachings! In other words, you can use these questions to measure your grasp of the teachings in terms of how you are facing and handling your challenges within life. As you progress, you will also see how this “testing” helps to reveal the deeper meanings to be found in the Jewels of Awareness.

Questions:

1. What is the circle of my being, and where is its centre?

2. What am I?

3. What is destiny, and what is my part in it?

4. What are my duties?

5. What is power?

6. What is freedom?

7. If freedom is what I claim it to be, then why do I seek it?

8. What is justice?

9. Where am I going?

10. What is the meaning of the Wheel of Destiny?

11. What is my purpose?

12. What is the earth to me?

13. If the earth is what I claim it to be, then what is death?

14. What is awareness?

15. What is my relationship to the Darkness?
16. What is now my view of the world?

17. How will I take from the Stream of Life that which I need?

18. How will I proceed from here?

19. What constitutes the Sacred Grove?

20. What is life?

21. What is my vision, and what do I know now?

22. Is there one person on earth who has benefited from me being born?

23. Whom have I liberated by destroying his prison?

24. How often have I forced someone into accepting my view of the world?

25. If I have the power to move mountains, will I do so?

26. Why am I walking the Path with a Heart?

27. How often have I set myself apart from those around me?

28. How many people have had to bow down to my will?

29. How often do I rape another being physically, mentally,
emotionally or spiritually?

30. Is there anyone in my life whose freedom I have respected more
than my own wishes?

31. What idea do I consider fundamental to my existence?

32. Is my personal rhythm compatible to the rhythm of life?

33. Freedom. Pure white light.

The Jewels of Awareness, the dark jewels (I have found the dark ones are the most easily identified by someone interested in change.

Although people talk freely of change, there are few who really know how to bring about fundamental change within themselves. The external circumstances of people’s lives may change, and they may sometimes succeed in changing some or many of their habits, but all too often, when something unexpected happens, they find that the changes they believed were solid, are not, and they are back, in some strange way, at where they started.

What then constitutes true inner change?

Any valid pathway can result in change – as long as it is pursued faithfully. However, nowadays most people tend to pick and choose from out of a path what they like and what fits in with their current frame of reference. Yet, this tendency towards dabbling simply reinforces their existing beliefs and prejudices, rather than allowing for new knowledge.

True change requires; firstly, being open to learning, in its proper sense; and secondly, being dedicated to continuing to learn. This untiring dedication is vital, because learning about the self is the most frightening and absorbing pursuit there is. It is in recognition of this fact about the true nature of learning that one of the aphorisms of the teachings gives this warning: “True knowledge is ever incomprehensible, greater and more powerful than man. Consequently to walk the Path of Knowledge is to fight for survival; therefore if you come to this path to learn, then you must be prepared to fight for your life.”

Partly to force apprentices to fathom and live out for themselves certain fundamental truths, these truths in the form of aphorisms, like that above, are usually conveyed orally. These aphorisms serve to guide the seeker into a deeper insight in how to master his or her awareness. Thus all aphorisms have been designed to be both springboards into the unknown, as well as beacon lights within the unknown. For rather than meandering the byways of the known, the seeker of knowledge ventures into the unexplored realms of the unknown. This is the journey that leads to true change.

Egotism
Active Shortcoming: Self-importance.
Behavior: Self-opinionated, arrogant, self-centered, pompous, holier-than-thou, longwinded.
Passive Shortcoming: Self-pity.
Behavior: Victim/martyr, hard-done-by, unappreciated, fear of exposure, fear of being wrong, fear of criticism.

Destruction
Active Shortcoming: Domineering.
Behavior: Demanding, over-bearing, bossy, intimidating.
Passive Shortcoming: Subservient.
Behavior: Servile, seeking approval, groveling, docile.

Fear
Active Shortcoming: Obsession with having to control.
Behavior: Clinging, demanding, wanting to be right, worrying, being derogatory, volatile, defensive.
Passive Shortcoming: Escapism.
Behavior: Insecurity, avoidance, playing the Nothing Game, morbidity, indecisiveness, dishonesty, instability, timidity, lack of self-belief.

Temptation
Active Shortcoming: Defiance.
Behavior: Not listening, rebellious, closed, justifying.
Passive Shortcoming: Submission.
Behavior: I will do it BUT under duress, having a chip on the shoulder, I will suffer but YOU will pay.

Illusion
Active Shortcoming: Altruism.
Behavior: Kindness of heart, putting someone on a pedestal, blind faith.
Passive Shortcoming: Gullibility.
Behavior: Giving the benefit of the doubt, abnegating responsibility, do-gooder.

Resistance
Active Shortcoming: Stubbornness.
Behavior: Pig-headed, inflexible, dog-with-a-bone, aggressive, flippant, disrespectful, deflecting, defensive.
Passive Shortcoming: Obstinacy.
Behavior: Not listening, wanting life on own terms, insolence, unresponsive, stoicism, procrastination, denial.

Abuse of Power
Active Shortcoming: Cruelty.
Behavior: Imposing, insensitive, sadistic, vitriolic, aggressive, sarcastic.
Passive Shortcoming: Self-abnegation.
Behavior: Callous, cold, unnurturing, harsh.

Abuse Generally
Active Shortcoming: Oppression.
Behavior: Forceful, greedy, coercive, aggressive, playing the Blame Game.
Passive Shortcoming: Fixation.
Behavior: Infatuation, romance, fanaticism, narrow-mindedness.

Manipulation
Active Shortcoming: Lust for…
Behavior: Sexual manipulation, covetousness, lewdness, hunger for power, love of intrigue.
Passive Shortcoming: Corruptible.
Behavior: Easily seduced, fraudulent, degenerate, depraved, decadent, perverted.

Reason/Logic
Active Shortcoming: Bigotry.
Behavior: Dogmatic, disbelieving, intolerant, assumed understanding, selective perception.
Passive Shortcoming: Prejudiced.
Behavior: Discriminating against, harbouring preconceptions, distorting the truth, indulging.

Disharmony
Active Shortcoming: Inertia.
Behavior: Anarchy, nihilism, discrediting, slandering, gossiping, interrupting.
Passive Shortcoming: Entropy.
Behaviour: Apathy, indifference, carelessness, negligence, sloth, confusion,

This all was given to me orally by the wolf, and I have probably done them a disservice by not doing the same. But, something to chew on.